Like a Butterfly

When I look back 5-10 years, it’s hard, I was selfish, especially with my time and my money. My priority was me. It’s embarrassing to share this.

Me. Me. Me. Me.

I barely had enough to get by, why would I be generous and giving?

It took going to the other side of the planet for me to see my life differently and make a change. I’ll always remember sitting on the microbus traveling from Austria to Slovakia, looking out at the beautiful countryside, thinking to myself, the people here are trying to do the same thing as the people back home.

Solo adventure to Europe - October 2018

Everyone is living life, doing their thing, moving away from problems, well, that’s not how it works.  My problems would have followed me.  Geography doesn’t change your heart.  I did make the decision that running away wasn’t going to fix me or my outlook on life. 

I’ve worked hard in the past few years to become a more generous person. I found a church that I love, and I participate in events and even lead my own small group.  It gives me so much joy.

Today, we give so much and yet we always have enough.  Faith, it boggles my mind if I think about it too much. God provides. Let go and let Him. The blessings and resources we receive are all from Him and it’s our job to manage. When you are good at managing a little, you can be trusted to manage a lot.

This transformation has brought me so much peace. Some who have known me the longest would agree that I’ve changed. From a self-centered brat to a much kinder, caring and thoughtful woman.