Exposing My Truth

As the self-proclaimed nerd (I wore glasses the first 28 years of my life and have an accounting degree) and spender in the relationship, I'm so thankful for the balance of having a free spirited saver by my side. Free spirited saver doesn't even make sense in my brain, but it's a great balance. Lately, I've been leaning in hard to be more of a saver.

There is so much focus when you are working on the common goal of paying off debt and then saving money for the 3-6 month emergency fund. When those things are complete, the focus has to change again. It's time to pivot. That pivot hinge is stuck in saver mode. I did a thing today and it's still uncomfortable.

I'm then reminded of one of my favorite stories in the bible: The Parable of the Talents in Matthew 25:14-30, where the servants are given bags of silver to manage. The servants who use their resources and invest and get to work are rewarded and given more to manage. The one who digs a hole and hides the bag of silver because he is scared to make a mistake and lose it, he was not rewarded, he was scolded for doing nothing.

In this way, I am reminded of the gifts that we have been given as a family to manage. This means that we don't hoard it, we use it, invest it, spend it, and give it. We do not need to worry, we need to have faith that we are making good decisions and that we are working for the Lord to spread His goodness.

So I invested in myself today. Not only did I spend the money, money that was in the checking account, available to spend, but I have committed myself to continuing to grow in my career as a Financial Coach. It's scary. I have so much confidence when it comes to guiding others to build their budgets and pay off debt, and make big changes. I am working to have the same confidence in myself.

The nerd, who looks at the budget on a daily basis, knows there is plenty because she has projected out the entire year. Enter eye roll emoji, seriously, is this really necessary? She had to run it by her husband, again, just to make sure he was still supportive (of course he was). He believes in me when I'm not quite believing in myself. I'm embarking on a journey of self exploration to expose my truth. It will be a 30 day adventure (give or take a couple days) and I'm excited for you to join me!